*WHAT AM I DOING WRONG !!* 🤷🏻‍♀️ PLEASE COME BACK!! 2-26-19
Feb 26, 2019
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good morning everybody and welcome to
Monday Monday well it's actually kind of
like afternoon I know how amy rules
sometimes okay um
so first thing I want to address is I
don't know what is going on and what is
occurring with my channel but come on
you guys please like share subscribe and
say subscribe because my numbers keep
dropping and I don't know why I keep
getting so many amazing comments you're
amazing you're wonderful you're a breath
of fresh air and then my numbers keep
declining why why are my numbers
declining you guys tell me what am I
doing wrong please tell me if there is
something I am not doing for you guys
tell me I want my channel to grow not to
be declining but I'm not going to stoop
to some levels of some people where I'm
just going to like throw stuff out there
so that my channel will grow because
that's just not the way I want to be but
I definitely want to see my channel grow
I'm not 1527 you guys and I was at 500
well 1500 in like 36 I think so and that
was just like yesterday's so I don't
know what in the world has occurred but
come I come I want to help a sister out
okay enough with the ranting so I have
not for a while read comments about I
mean I read them every single day but I
haven't read them out loud so I thought
for
char that I would do a little bit of
reading with you guys on some of the
comments yes I have another another
lepak on his job on Isle of leprechauns
as you can all know so uh yeah um Oh
before before I forget to really forget
um so I announced that I was gonna start
doing lives on every Wednesday however I
kind of forgot that that's when chef
wannabe goes live and I always tried to
be on her lives sometimes I fail on that
but usually nine out of ten I do get
there I just show up fashionably late so
with that I I'm not going to be doing
lives on Wednesdays I am gonna do my
life this Wednesday because it is her
birthday happy birthday so she is and
her husband have plans and they're gonna
go and do something fun for her birthday
which she so deserves so she said go
ahead and do this Wednesday well she
told me I could just keep it on
Wednesdays and we'd figure it out but
that's just not even I know we will we
will work our our schedule around her
schedule because she's the one that had
Wednesday's going and I'm not going to
step into that because I love her lives
so I'm thinking we're gonna do
Thursday's after so we're gonna do
Wednesday this week
so tomorrow our Wednesday we'll do our
live but the next week we'll go back to
doing will do Thursday's and I will be
going live there shouldn't be a reason
why I cannot go live everyone's our
every Thursday sorry after this week at
5 p.m. Pacific Standard Time so like for
this week we'll do live on Wednesday at
5 p.m. my time so Pacific time but then
after that we'll switch to Thursdays at
5 p.m. and I'll continue to remind you
guys because I'm sure it's something
that will be something we have to get
kind of used to so I'm totally cool a
game to put
in there also I want to remind you guys
to please check out the merch on life by
Jen's channel and also pink fairy I
haven't gotten any orders from their
channels for a while so just make sure
that if you guys are interested in any
merch that you guys jump on over and
check that out I can customize anything
as needed
we go up to size 6 x on clothing and go
as small as an extra small we also do
tumblers and high-cost tumblers we do
totes and coffee cups hats blankets
trying to think of what else we do um I
think that's well there's just a whole
bunch of stuff in there so go take a
look and if you find anything shoot your
order my direction and I will definitely
get that out for you also I have been
busting some but on my tumblers you guys
I am so proud to say I officially have
four that I can sell now I have one on
my turner right now that we'll be
finishing I am so excited to see how
this one turns out it is a coffee mug so
I am really really excited um I have
another one that is just been epoxy are
not epoxy sorry mod podge with glitter
and that is a wine cup again I can
customize tumblers to anything you need
want saying colors
you name it you shoot it at me I can
definitely get them up for you I also
will be showing pictures as we are going
through here and be able to explain kind
of what you guys are seen I am so
excited though this is something that is
finally coming alive and I just am so
excited to see the reason ending result
to the whole thing so anyways I thought
maybe I would come
cross and read a couple of our comments
since I haven't done that for a while
with you guys and then we'll do our book
reading the last couple of days I have
not been out as you guys seen we got
snow and to mow see you guys you're
probably thinking what the heck you're
talking about that being snow but for me
like I said before I don't like the snow
I don't like it I will not driving it I
will not walk my happy little big old
butt in it no it doesn't work that way
so we as in me and the babies and
Jeremiah stayed home the last couple of
days because I just didn't want to get
the kids out and get them sick or you
know and Ollie has been working really
hard and so he's been out and about
doing things that he needed to get done
but I just you know I I really didn't
have a lot to vlog so I'm really sorry
that I've been doing a lot more sit-down
videos the last couple of days I know
that that's not typically how I do
things but for the last few days it's
just been kind of as it is I my
counseling was canceled this this
morning because my counselor couldn't
get off of her
Hill and of course I'm not gonna drive
in it so that was a no-go and then I had
my ultrasound scheduled today for 1:45
but I had to cancel that as well because
again not gonna drive in it so now I'm
just gonna skip my counseling altogether
this week because there was just she
could fit me in to Tuesday tomorrow but
she would have to fit me in at 3 o'clock
and s4 has a doctor's appointment on at
2:45 tomorrow so there was just no way
we were gonna be able to get it all and
you know and have somebody to be there
for Omar while he was at the doctor's
with us for us so anyways um oh and then
my ultrasound is scheduled for Thursday
so it will all work out where we're
gonna get it all worked out but I yeah
the snow and the weather just kind of
had a little bit of a plant on me but
it's alright you know what
shall make it it's actually a really
nice day today I need to possibly get
out and go to Dollar Tree today I need
to pick up some more supplies and I am
looking at possibly buying another to
tumblr Turner's because I see that my
orders are gonna be coming through and
one Turner is just not gonna be enough
so I really really really would like to
invest in at least at least one more if
not two more and I need to invest in
some more glitter and stuff like that
which that's stuff that you know I order
online whoa
or um they're from Walmart or you can
get them anywhere really so anyways
that's what's up for today um so first
first comment boom
I'm sitting here getting a little lost
life by jinn I so love how you matched
everything in green love love love you
should toot your horn you're doing
amazing love you a sweet friend oh thank
you
they use so much jen i truly appreciate
it you know sometimes it's you can get
so caught up and busy in just the dues
of life you know when you just kind of
forget that you need to also sit back
and brace and enjoy the atmosphere of
what you're in and things like that so i
appreciate that comment that means a lot
to me sam smith says does the chemicals
to make the cups in etc have a chemical
odor or is it just like glue smell to it
did you learn to make these things on
your own or classes so to answer your
first question so the only thing that
really has like any type of like a smell
to it would be the Mod Podge and it's
more of just like a glue smell like
Elmer's glue because that's pretty much
what I think it is um so if I'm gonna
see anything really has a smell it would
be the Mod Podge and that's really not
that bad of a smell the epoxy doesn't to
me does not have a smell however I have
been reading a little bit more about how
I need to prepare my skin a little bit
I do not touch the epoxy as much as I
possibly can bare fingered
or hands or whatever which unfortunately
my body has touched it but I just wash
it off as fast as you know I can once
I'm done with whatever it is that I'm
using the epoxy for because once you
start applying you really can't just
stop because if you stop then it just
becomes a really hot mess but you know
I'm learning more about epoxy I'm
learning more about like chemical
reaction and things like that I have
noticed my body has been a little bit
itchy and I don't know if that has
anything to do with using the epoxy the
only thing I can imagine that it might
be from is wet and all the epoxy and
everything was going everywhere I'm
wondering if it was if it just got too
much on my skin because my scalp has
been itching really bad and so as far as
which I liked last night because I
noticed her Scratchy and I'm thinking oh
my god I hope to god she does not like
have lice or something like that was my
first real like my very first reaction
was holy hell I hope this child does not
have lice from Jeremih bringing a home
tour and last time I had a bout of lice
oh my god was before Jeremiah's so it's
been at least almost well over 11 years
and I remember I got it from a daycare
child and my hair at the time was like
to my bite and I will never forget and I
had nobody to help me go through my hair
because I I clearly just didn't have
anybody so my sister-in-law at the time
was like I know that there's a way that
you can do this and it probably is not
the best thing to do with your hair but
it does really work and I'm like what is
it give it to me because I can't handle
this like I just can't handle it okay
I'll get you peanut butter in a minute
okay let me close my okay yes I will do
that in just a minute okay so anyways
okay let's talk about my table um
anyways so she said you used pine-sol
and you drape your hair over a like a
sink you pour you like immerse your hair
in it and then you take a trash bag or a
bag or whatever and
SIL it up and you keep it on your hair
and on your scalp for as long as you can
handle it I'm like okay I'm gonna do it
because I can't deal with this lice
business No
so I did exactly what she told me and I
had it on for about 35 minutes and oh my
god my scalp was on fire but it was
really weird I know everybody's probably
now starting to scratch their scalp
because of once you start talking about
it it's like even now my body is just
like it's the whole talk about like even
if hey let's just do the same thing me
anyways um so when I was done I took the
bag off my hair and then I just dumped
my head over and you can literally see
the eggs just falling off of your hair
onto the towel and I'm like this is foul
as foul can get and then I had bought in
a really excited okay hold on
I went and I bought a really expensive
lice comb like it was expensive I in
fact I still have the stupid thing
eleven and a half years later because
that thing was expensive but I did it
and oh my gosh I I took care of my whole
life's problem myself I didn't have
nobody to sit and pick out nits for me
nothing and I haven't had license but
when I seen her scratching my side I'm
like oh no no no no because her hair is
long and it's curly and that would be a
whole hot mess
so I checked her hair and she didn't
have anything so I think what it might
be as it might be from the epoxy when I
was drilling it that really is the only
thing I can think of it being butthole
oh my god I've been itching and so I
looked up reactions to that and that
kind of is what I explained how I went
into a whole rant there and then also
home did you learn to make these things
on your own or classes honestly I have
sat and watched hours upon hours upon
hours of tutorials on how to do this and
then I just take it and teach myself
pretty much I mean I I follow along
while I'm watching the channel and
but at the end of the day I'm just doing
it myself and I just wing it and you
know I think that they're turning out as
well as they can for a beginner I'm not
assume so anyways yes that is that part
Susie the line the line says hi Amy what
days and times do you go live I want to
be a part of the fun I was sick in bed
for a few days and you're beautiful
upbeat personality really made me feel
better also you have a beautiful singing
voice oh okay so to answer the first
question we kind of went over that
already so I think we're gonna be doing
Wednesday this week and then we'll
switch it to Thursdays at 5:00 p.m.
Pacific Standard Time so wherever you're
at I guess it would just Google what
different time change from Pacific to
you know wherever you're at so make sure
that you would check that because I'm
really mad bad about the only one I know
is New York time is three hours ahead of
us any other time Google because I'll
tell you something that's way off and I
want you to be there I would love to
have you there so please make sure that
you find all the timing and so yes
Wednesday this week and then after that
we'll switch it to Thursdays and I am so
so so sorry to hear that you were in bed
sick I've heard a lot of people saying
they've been sick so I hope that you're
getting to feeling better and thank you
so much for the the uplifting about my
personality it's you know I this is just
me I you know you could you you have two
choices in life you could either go
through life miserable and always
wishing for things to be different or
you can just embrace life the way that
it is and accept you know accept what
you can and change what you can and what
you can't roll with it
life is short you know have fun while
you can that's you know my biggest motto
and in life in my life in my family's
life and about my beautiful singing
beautiful it's all foreplay don't worry
no lessons been taken here Clara Miller
I was just behind your car and now I am
subscribed thank you so much so clearly
we must be roughly around each other if
you see my sticker and I hope that I
didn't scare you with my driving or I'm
not sure well you said I was just behind
your cars so maybe you were behind my
husband all lean either way I hope that
we didn't cut you off or anything I'm
pretty good about that sometimes
no but welcome to my channel and I'm so
happy to have you here I am hoping that
my channel is everything that you are
looking for always feel free to chime in
on comments and support one another
that's what our channel is all about so
yeah I'm so happy to have you here and
I'm glad that my sticker draw you drew
you this direction okay um let's see
chef wannabe I won't be able to be at
your live Wednesday's are my lives as
well only one hour difference we fixed
that one girlfriend girlfriend so yes
Laura dacoit I would love to watch that
Amy and it sure it is super interesting
and yes I will definitely be showing
that I haven't the last few times
because I've been trying to bust out the
cups quicker but it's soon as soon soon
I will be getting a tutorial up to show
you guys just kind of what I'm doing but
I think I'm gonna set that on its own
video and the only reason why is because
for some people it's true some people
don't really enjoy watching that so I'm
not gonna put it into my actual vlog I
will just put it into an actual just
video of itself
Seattle Sapphire says that reading got
me all twisted today I choose to honor
and protect my heart space by letting go
of the relationships and that are toxic
inconsistent and draining I need to get
it together because these daily quotes
are whipping my butt I find that I find
when I have trouble in my primary
relationship I end up in toxic
relationships because my primary
relationship is in trouble you know
honestly I have to agree with you 100%
I think that you hit the nail straight
on the head and honestly I think that it
all bases off of that relationship that
is your primary and as long as you can
keep that primary relationship as and
healthiest situations as possible I
think that that's like gonna base
yourself off of all your other
relationships and they're not gonna
bleed into each other if that makes any
sense
so yeah definitely I agree with you 100%
okay the horror call me I ain't even
gonna try to say that one sista solare
my beautiful system for a live chat
please the headpiece and the decorations
look awesome and not too much love you
and keep going and sha Allah thank you
so much sis and I 100% agree with you I
love the head pieces I love my
decorations and yes my husband's just
jealous that's it he does not understand
the whole look at that I can try you
because clearly you're just gonna have
attitude phone holder he does not get
the whole concept of the st. Patrick's
Day he's just like oh my gosh what is
all this about green I'm like go to
Irish and you'll find out and yes I am
so excited for my life on Wednesday got
lots of things to chitchat about and
hopefully by then I'll have some more
cups that I can bust out and show you
guys so yeah and then Karen Hughes will
be our last reader for tonight hi Amy
just wanted to say hi always enjoy your
videos can't wait to see your cups like
your decoration thank you thank you and
thank you so much I am so appreciative
that you are here Karen I appreciate the
support and all the encouragement that
you give me as well and just I love
having you a part of the channel along
with everybody else I thank you guys so
much for all of the time that you guys
take on commenting and you know I just
I embrace each and every one of you guys
in your relationships that we've gained
together and so I couldn't be more
thankful for for my channel for you guys
and for everything that has happened
within the last few short months so
anyways let's get on to our reading
because we have one last thing to chit
chit chat about so let's get our books
out if you have them get your books out
children
we're opening today at No
oh my gosh okay so okay alright so
today's reading is January 24th and it
says oh hold on we already read that one
oh the okay and I said hold on a minute
okay I will do that we're I'm getting
close to being done and then I will do
that please get down cuz I don't need
any accidents okay and I said hold on
just a minute okay yeah yeah I don't
want you to fall and hit your head so
please get down thank you okay go sit
down and watch your cartoon for a minute
mama we'll be done in just a minute okay
yes mommy will make you a peanut butter
sandwich in just a minute okay
January 25th clearly my children are
needing my attention me although their
father is sitting right there but
daddy's just don't do it the same ya
know anyways
January 25th I will be out in just a
minute you're being very rude okay
Ezra you're being rude let mama finish
my reading okay can we not bump my table
please okay can we not but my chair
thank you there is no expiration date on
healing and don't postpone the process
to make someone else's comfort else
comfortable you don't need anyone's
permission but your own let's read that
one more time
there is no expiration date on healing
don't postpone the process to make
someone else comfortable you don't need
anyone's permission but your own
oh this book what about this book just
the the whole aspect of this book what
the whole relationship talking is just
you know it's amazing how this book has
just been focusing so much on
relationships and I think in reality it
it really has been speaking so much more
to my heart because of everything that I
have been going through with my own
relationships and building new
relationships it's really been such a
blessing to me to be able to read this
and be like wow okay you know what that
is right and no I I think I see where
I've gone wrong but you know looking at
this reading today and reading the part
about there's no expiration date on
healing because there's not you know
some people have made comments in the
past to me you know there's no it's
there's no time limit to when I can be
done with counselling there's none
there's there's absolutely none because
you know there are some people that go
to counselling for a lifetime they have
to and then others they only have to go
to counseling for a month and they're
they're good with what they've gained so
I will do this in a you guys do you ever
have a stop do you ever have a child
that absolutely loves peanut butter as
much as I have to gremlins that is their
nickname is gremlin he'd go no go haha
okay if you want this I'm gonna call
your dad in to make it now you're being
drama King last night he woke up in the
like Olli had put him to sleep and he
came out all he did he came out in the
living room so we could sit down and
watch TV about I don't know 30 minutes
later here comes Omar trotting out of
the bedroom with his blanket and he
comes out and he looks at all in he goes
hey and he was mid sleep like literally
he was sleeping he comes down says hey
what are you doing out here you need to
come back in their bedroom with me he we
looked at each other like
we people the adult is in this household
okay I clearly had to get up and go you
know make their peanut butter sandwich
because they weren't gonna stop until I
did that anyways but just you know
thinking about like relationships and
where they go and how you hill with them
and how you handle them it alls gonna
come off from and it's gonna stem from
you being healed first before you can
have a real actual relationship that is
not going to be a toxic relationship and
that's what all this realms around is
building those relationships on
foundations again that are going to be
firm foundations of boundaries sticking
but none of that can happen until you
stop a hundred percent and take care of
yourself first before you take care of
any type of a relationship and that's
kind of where I'm at in a way I mean I
can sustain relationships to a point but
you know it's also taken me being
selfish like I told you guys yesterday I
feel like at times I have become selfish
because I've had to put myself first
and the reason I do that is because if I
don't I'm not gonna be able to build a
relationship that I truly truly want and
it's not gonna be one that's gonna be
long-lasting because I'm gonna go into
that relationship with all still the
baggage that I've been carrying
throughout my years and the expectations
of relationships that might not be vile
for the relationship that I'm looking
for and so you know I think this whole
conversation about relationships has
been just so so eye-opening because it's
really hitting me and the times that I
need it the most right now and so I'm
just yeah it's it's been it's been
amazing I can honestly say that this
book has been everything everything and
more that I have needed to hear and I
know that there's many more out there
that have been enjoying the book as well
because it speaks so much volume to so
many people because I think everybody
has relationships in their lives that
need to either be war
dawn let go of or created at the end of
the day and then okay so there is that
for the reading for today I also wanted
to run through really quick so I said I
was going to show you guys some pictures
of my tumblers that I have finished so
I'm definitely going to show you guys
those so how I am setting these up is I
have sticky notes and I took pictures
and there is the price for them my 30
ounce stainless steel tumblers go for
$45 now if you want extra like if you
want a personalized and stuff the price
might vary just a little bit depending
on what kind of things that you're
needing and wanting on it
but the starting price for my stainless
tumblers are 45 and those are 30 ounce
stainless and they do come with straws
my 16 ounce plastic tumblers which are
the one that has the big ole booboo on
it of the Kaos misspelling those are
starting at $30 again if you want more
like detail to them and stuff the price
might vary a little bit not much but it
might vary just a bit and my boo boo one
the one that has a misspelled Kaos word
I am selling that one if anybody wants
it for 15 you're more than welcome to
buy that one but if you don't want it I
fully understand okay
the let's see the there's the one with
the beach scene that one the words say
beach please and then the other one with
the eyes and the lips are it says be
your own beautiful I have one on the
Turner right now which is a coffee mug
and that one will be ready to be shown
tomorrow so I will continue to keep
showing them I'm also going to be making
a Facebook page well I'm not making I
have a Facebook page for anybody that's
not aware and it's under vinyl nut
designs that is my business there I can
do any type of vinylene I do vinylene on
clothing
hats totes I mean I can do vinylene on
anything and then I just started my
tumblers as well I just launched those
so I will be posting up pictures of the
ones that I have done I also I'm gonna
be posting up some pictures of some
ideas of things if you want to put an
order and for any of the ones that I
post I'm totally cool with that remember
that these are all hand-done so there's
not one that's gonna be the same as
another one they they can all say the
same words and typically have the same
idea of colors and things but sometimes
you know I just want to put that out
there that not every one of them is
gonna be exact to the same exact sack
because well that's the good thing and
the fun thing about getting homemade or
homemade handmade items is that each and
every one of them is made a little bit
slightly different and that's just
because you know I'm not a robot so
anyways I hope you guys enjoy today and
I hope you enjoy seeing my snow scenes
and my great tumblers that I finished so
far and like I said I'm hoping to be
able to invest in another light and also
another tumblr Turner and yeah so
tomorrow like I said I swear has a
doctor's appointment at 2:45 I need to
run to Dollar Tree at some point so
maybe I'll take you guys along there and
other than that I think that's about it
so I hope you guys enjoy take care I'll
check in with you guys tomorrow first
thing in the morning please please
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so anyways alright I'm done with the
whole rant so I will check in with you
guys tomorrow first thing in the morning
ah let's try that again I will check it
with you guys first thing in the morning
until then sweet dreams
you